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awww thank you Jared!!!! :)

24.What ARE you looking forward to?

Going back to college! I feel more like I’m in God’s will there. My friends are there. It’s how I advance my future. It’s more peaceful than home.

37.Can you live a day without TV?

I can! at college I don’t have tv, so I live off a few shows on the internet here or there. most days I don’t have time for it.

39.Three names you go by..

Jackie

Jacqueline

Jack-attack

Last night I had a dream about a ex-bestfriend. I think it’s because my dad said he was still friends with him on facebook. It’s weird, because there was actually some closure with this ex-bestfriend unlike another one. He doesn’t cross my mind that often.

Long story short, I was there for him when my other friend dumped him and he was devastated, for whatever reason I told him to try online dating, he got a girlfriend, forgot about me basically, and turned into someone else. He claimed that he never lied. of course when he got with her, he started lying a ton. He basically threw me away when he didn’t need a best friend anymore. Don’t you hate it when you see someone’s true colors? :/

So I got sick of his antics, called off the friendship, he told me to go to hell, I told him something much worse but then I apologized a few months later because it was really bad. But that’s the last I heard from him.

That’s why dreams suck. I didn’t even think of those things til it pops up in my dreams. That’s not even the only best friend I lost that year. ya I just love memories… It just reminds me how many people have walked out on me. Always a great feeling.

Tomorrow I’m going with mom to look at condos because her lease is up soon. Then we’re going to a Proverb’s 31 gifts party. Like a tupperware party, but it’s gifts/bags/totes whatever. I guess it’s something to do.

On friday, my dad, my sister, and her boyfriend are all going to Boston to the Sam Adams brewery. Well, I have no interest in beer, nor can I drink, nor Do I drink. Dad wants me to go with to spend time with my sister since she’s going to be deployed soon (she’s in the navy). I don’t really know if I want to go. But I’m going to try to convince my dad if we can all go to the aquarium.  The aquarium is pretty cool and I’d love to go again. 

Anyways, who knows what will happen. Life is pretty boring and I lack motivation to see anyone. Still looking for a job, hoping that one place I interviewed at calls me back.

Hoping for no bad dreams tonight :/